tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11061797463428866452024-02-06T20:53:40.955-08:00Lovely and AmazingCarly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.comBlogger70125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-77750855702448362592011-04-19T08:39:00.000-07:002011-04-19T08:45:56.480-07:00im back...for reals this timehello hello!<br /><br />life happens and gets in the way of things sometimes. days turn into weeks turn into months...i haven't written anything since October! my etsy shop has also been suffering from neglect...i miss spending time with my crafts.<br /><br />things are going to changeCarly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-83955594979422791212010-10-05T07:47:00.000-07:002010-10-05T18:26:56.784-07:00what i want for christmas...a couple weeks ago my mom sent me an email with a link to a store asking me if i wanted anything from it for christmas. that made me start thinking about getting and giving presents. i am allowing myself a little indulgence by making a christmas list. of 10 things.<br /><br />For christmas, I want...<br /><br />1. money towards a trip to Best Friends Animal Sanctuary (i was there in April for my birthday and i am dying to go back "<a href="http://lovely-and-amazing.blogspot.com/search/label/Best%20Friends">Best Friends Blog Post</a>") This is what I want the most!<br /><br />2. a beautiful yoga mat that is a longer length (<a href="http://www.manduka.com/catalog/categories/products/mats/black-mat-pro/">Manduka</a> 85 inches or <a href="http://www.jadeyoga.com/store/home.php?cat=249">Jade</a> 74 or 80 inches)<br /><br />3. these beautiful <a href="http://www.torrid.com/torrid/Shoes/Boots/Reagan-Brown-Rider-Boots-Wide-Width-532143.jsp">over the knee boots</a> in brown<br /><br />4. these weights...<a href="http://www.target.com/Embark-Weight-Set-Silver-Black/dp/B002N0Z0SM/ref=sr_1_8?ie=UTF8&searchView=grid5&keywords=hand%20weights&fromGsearch=true&sr=1-8&qid=1286290971&rh=&searchRank=target104545&id=Embark%20Weight%20Set%20Silver%20Black&node=1038576%7C1287991011&searchSize=30&searchPage=1&searchNodeID=1038576%7C1287991011&searchBinNameList=subjectbin%2Cprice%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Ctarget_com_size-bin%2Ctarget_com_brand-bin&frombrowse=0">hand weights</a> and <a href="http://www.target.com/55-lb-Pro-Plate-Design-Weight-Set/dp/B000BBCLMI/ref=sr_1_7?ie=UTF8&searchView=grid5&keywords=weights&fromGsearch=true&sr=1-7&qid=1286290841&rh=subjectbin%3A165763011%7Csubjectbin%3A1038604&searchRank=target104545&id=55-lb%20Pro%20Plate-Design%20Weight%20Set&node=1038576%7C1287991011&searchSize=30&searchPage=1&searchNodeID=1038576%7C1287991011&searchBinNameList=subjectbin%2Cprice%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Ctarget_com_size-bin%2Ctarget_com_brand-bin&frombrowse=0">whatever this is called</a> (i might not use these on a regular basis, but i liked using them when i would work out in that way)<br /><br />5. this Mad Men inspired <a href="http://www.pinupgirlclothing.com/ava-dress-jade-green.html">dress</a> and <a href="http://www.pinupgirlclothing.com/pencilskirt.html">high waist pencil skirt</a><br /><br />6. this <a href="http://www.etsy.com/listing/58004915/unisex-namaste-deep-v-neck-t-shirt">prayer mudra t-shirt</a> from ETSY seller <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop/zenthreads?ref=seller_info">ZenThreads</a> (forest shirt with white ink)<br /><br />7. Stila <a href="http://www.stilacosmetics.com/product_detail.asp?PMID=200&dept=4&cat=14">Lip Rouge in Pucker</a>, Stila <a href="http://www.stilacosmetics.com/product_detail.asp?PMID=647&dept=4&cat=13">24kt Gloss in Vintage Merlot</a> and Stila <a href="http://www.stilacosmetics.com/product_detail.asp?PMID=498&dept=4&cat=15">Lip Stain in Cherry Crush</a><br /><br />8. Rose Perfume (<a href="http://www.thebodyshop-usa.com/prod958880">Moroccan Rose</a> by The Body Shop, <a href="http://usa.loccitane.com/FO/rose-eau-de-toilette.htm?cm_mmc=GoogleBase=-_-Feed-_-Product-_-Item&mr:trackingCode=8EF32B93-D482-DE11-9973-0019B9C2BEFD&mr:referralID=NA">Rose 4 Reines</a> by L'Occitane)<br /><br />9. Essential Oil from <a href="http://www.youngliving.com/en_US/index.html">Young Living</a> (my faves are Acceptance, Clarity, Clary Sage, Eucalyptus)<br /><br />10. a new white duvet cover (like this one from <a href="http://www.target.com/Simply-Shabby-Chic-Heirloom-Comforter/dp/B001LEXP38/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&searchView=grid5&keywords=comforter%20cover&fromGsearch=true&sr=1-1&qid=1286328038&rh=target_com_primary_color-bin%3AWhite&searchRank=target104545&id=Simply%20Shabby%20Chic%20Heirloom%20Comforter&node=1041482&searchSize=30&searchPage=1&searchNodeID=1041482&searchBinNameList=subjectbin%2Cprice%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Ctarget_com_size-bin%2Ctarget_com_brand-bin&frombrowse=0">Target</a> or <a href="http://www.ikea.com/us/en/catalog/products/80110556">Ikea</a>)Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-4371519395477545922010-09-23T16:22:00.000-07:002010-09-23T16:33:31.459-07:00Holiday Mission Statement for my ETSY storeI am participating in the "<a href="http://www.etsy.com/storque/how-to/etsy-success-holiday-boot-camp-getting-started-10576/">Etsy Success Holiday Boot Camp</a>" on the ETSY website. I would like to have more success on ETSY and sell more of my jewelry and accessories and I figure that doing something like this couldn't hurt. I think I do succeed more when I am accountable to someone or thing and this feels like a fun project.<br /><br />My assignment for this week is to write a mission statement for the holiday season. Here is the written description..."<span><span>So your second task this week is to write out a mission statement. Why are you working your butt off this season? What is your motivation?"<br />I am going to list some goals I have and reminders as to why I want to be successful on ETSY. I love lists, so obviously this will be in list form!<br /><br />-I want to participate in craft shows this season. At least one small one and one big one.<br />- I have made 60 sales on etsy (and a few outside of etsy as well) I would like to be closer to 100 after this season is over.I am shooting for 20 more sales on Etsy and 20 more sales outside of Etsy (like at the craft shows)<br />- I would like to make enough money from Etsy to afford another trip to Best Friends Animal Sanctuary<br />- I want to remember how much I enjoy creating. I want to carry this joy around with me even if I do not meet all of my goals.<br />- I want to feel happy with everything I produce and realize that my items are worth buying!<br /></span></span>Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-830457597472129572010-09-23T16:07:00.000-07:002010-09-23T16:09:10.976-07:00The Holiday Bootcamp PledgeI, Carly Suzanne Westergard Dobson, pledge to participate in the Etsy Success Holiday Boot Camp to the best of my abilities. I vow to check in every week, do my homework and support my fellow Holiday Boot Campers. I will read the weekly newsletters and blog posts, check in on the weekly forum thread, read the weekly blog post, check off the checklists and salute the mascot. I promise to share what I've learned with those who need it, support my fellow Etsy indiepreneurs and, most of all, have a positive and persistent attitude. I understand that together we can spread the word about our handmade and vintage goods, making this holiday season a more unique and meaningful one to gift givers and give-ees everywhere!Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-14805997451157380922010-08-25T21:52:00.000-07:002010-08-25T21:59:53.996-07:00update...This is what I have been doing non stop the past couple weeks..<span style="text-decoration: underline;">.<br /><br /><br /></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6rZISs6XFD6vk_VZv5aaeSOIHgvgTBJYd7fl-XYUo45S5M7JkV-6ukt5kKlEcrpZngz92DOSBzqXl2hQqvW-Wa8FILCBLMhVodZfs9ibjuPRAA3YJoPxVcOTXICX8iaryh0rNjcOARUz_/s1600/100_2150.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6rZISs6XFD6vk_VZv5aaeSOIHgvgTBJYd7fl-XYUo45S5M7JkV-6ukt5kKlEcrpZngz92DOSBzqXl2hQqvW-Wa8FILCBLMhVodZfs9ibjuPRAA3YJoPxVcOTXICX8iaryh0rNjcOARUz_/s320/100_2150.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5509578285960570146" border="0" /></a><br /><br />I passed my test and I am a certified yoga instructor. I will start writing on the regular very soon!Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-76943838893731445562010-08-06T07:34:00.000-07:002010-08-06T07:34:54.366-07:00Day 16"Someone or something you could definitely live without"<br /><br /><br />I could live without animal cruelty. I am so affected when seeing a dead or hurt animal or when I hear a story about abuse. When the ASPCA commercials come on TV I have to change the channel because I will be in tears in 5 seconds. The last episode of True Blood had a dog fight scene and I could barely watch it. It makes my heart hurt. It makes me feel angry at people. It makes me really really want to open my own animal sanctuary.<br /><br />I think it was last year when I has sort of this realization about my relationship to animals. I noticed that whenever I saw and animal (primarily cats and dogs, but it extended to most everything else) I would get this feeling come over me. I would feel it in my gut. It was warm and exciting. I finally realized that it was LOVE. I have this automatic unconditional uncontrollable love for animals.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-11456429081851744922010-08-05T07:32:00.000-07:002010-08-05T07:44:25.575-07:00Day 15"Something or someone you couldn't live without because you have tried living without it"<br /><br />So there are obvious things I couldn't live without like air, water, food, etc. but I have not tried living without these things.<br /><br /><br />I don't think there is a real answer to this question. I think that human beings are strong enough to live without something they love (minus basic needs.) I thought that living a "normal" life after my dad died was going to be impossible, but I figured it out. I am living without my dad being alive...its not my first choice situation, but I can do it.<br /><br /><br />This question makes me think about people that have physical disabilities. I wrote my thesis on mixed ability dance, and focused specifically on dance companies that had dancers on legs and dancers on wheels. Throughout my research I came across many people with various disabilities who loved to dance and so they did. I wonder how they felt (if they remember) when they first met with their disability? I wonder if they thought that life was not worth living without my leg/arm/etc.? It makes me realize that people can live without things and still make it through life and not just barely.<br /><br /><br />I am going to say that there is nothing and no one that I couldn't live without. Again, there are things and people that I would be extremely distraught about if I lost, but I know I could make it. My yoga teacher told a story last night and the moral seems to fit right now...Its the struggles in life that let us know how strong we really are. Peace to all who survive the struggles.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-722941126497659042010-08-03T07:36:00.000-07:002010-08-03T07:37:43.974-07:00Day 14haven't updated in a while...life sometimes gets in the way. my blog just took a backseat to all of the other things going on right now. here goes my attempt to start it back up again...<br /><br /><br />"A hero who has let you down"<br /><br />Im just going to be honest. I really can't think of anyone to write about. This is part of the reason why I haven't updated in a while...this blog topic stumped me.<br /><br />Of course I have heroes, but I don't feel a huge let down from them. I also have people that I admire, musicians and artists, but they are not my heroes. Death from a drug overdose is not really a heroic way to die. I have been disappointed that people have given up on life, but these people are not in my real life so its hard for me to feel let down.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-59026310758192011642010-07-23T00:37:00.000-07:002010-07-23T00:49:53.675-07:00Day 13"A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days (write a letter)"<br /><br />Dear Death Cab for Cutie,<br /><br />Thank you for writing the song "What Sarah Said." Despite the fact that I couldn't listen to it for a long time doesn't make it any less valuable to me.<br />When my dad died, I didn't want to listen to any music, watch any tv, read any books or do anything for that matter. I just wanted to sit and stare. Being in the hospital with him and with my family was an extremely emotional experience that I really can't put into words. Your song "What Sarah Said" really summed up what I had been thinking and feeling while being in the hospital for my dad.<br />I was inspired to choreograph a dance, which ended up being my Master's Thesis piece, because of a specific line from the song. "our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds" It really made me think about memories and how they are not perfect or accurate. It takes work to remember someone and I really try and think about my dad everyday to keep things moving and not let the memories get stale.<br />"you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all" is another quote that really really resonated with me. I miss my dad so much and it hurts a lot that he is gone and that I only had him for 21 years, BUT I am so thankful for those years that I had with him. I was blessed with an amazing dad and I am fortunate to have known him. I hate that he is gone, but I love that he was here.<br />Thank you for writing this song. Thank you for expressing words and feelings that I couldn't. Thank you for describing the ICU perfectly. Thank you for acknowledging that we can feel selfish for breathing around someone else who is dying. Thank you for noticing that the TV is on but no one watches it.<br />love and peace,<br />Carly<br /><br /><br />"What Sarah Said"<br />And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time<br />As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409<br />And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today<br />As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me<br />Away from me<br /><br />Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye<br />It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds<br />But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all<br />And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself<br /><br />'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room<br />Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news<br />And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads<br />But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"<br /><br />So who's going to watch you die?..Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-78205420710652535562010-07-22T06:46:00.001-07:002010-07-22T13:03:06.985-07:00Day 12"Something you never get compliments on"<br /><br />This is weird. I am not in the habit of fining things that I like about myself but others don't seem to notice. I just feels funny and out of place.<br /><br />I think that I am a funny person. I feel like I have a good sense of humor and I make jokes and do funny things a lot. I don't really ever hear someone say that I am funny.<br /><br />Honestly, it doesn't matter to me. I would rather focus on the things I get complimented on and focus on complimenting myself. Staying in that place of "no one ever tells me I'm this" is not where I chose to be. It seems negative...or at least I see it as negative for me.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-71206278934241863372010-07-21T09:46:00.000-07:002010-07-21T09:46:25.048-07:00Day 11So me trying to post over the weekend didn't work at all! I am picking up where I left off...<br /><br />"Something people seem to compliment you the most on"<br /><br />Superficial...people seem to always say something about my skin. I appreciate my skin and I try to take good care of it, but I don't think it is anything spectacular. I think it is nice, but I dont think I would compliment myself on it.<br /><br />Non superficial...People tell me I am a good listener. I first remember someone telling me that when I was 13. I never really thought about it through high school, but it is now something I try to practice on a regular basis.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-67951987258425290132010-07-16T21:36:00.000-07:002010-07-16T21:40:21.396-07:00Day 10"Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know"<br /><br />hmmm...<br /><br />I really feel like those who I need to let go are basically gone. I try not to keep toxic relationships because it is not fair to either party. I don't need to keep people in my life that are not caring and loving and compassionate and giving. Those are all things I try to be and I choose people who share similar qualities.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-55936004161545487192010-07-15T06:15:00.000-07:002010-07-15T23:16:59.783-07:00Day 9"Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted"<br /><br />I am still in contact with some of my lovely friends from grad school, but not as good of contact as I want to be. The women I met in grad school are amazing. A lot of them stayed in the bay area and some moved farther away.<br /><br />I don't think this means I have to let them continue to drift. I think it's funny that I have to write this post today because yesterday I got a phone call from a grad school friend who just moved to LA. Also another grad school friend will be in Anaheim this weekend. I think its a sign telling me to not let these friends drift awayCarly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-85955530320986017612010-07-14T08:26:00.000-07:002010-07-14T08:44:44.671-07:00Day 8"Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit"<br /><br />For some reason this amuses me.<br /><br />I don't think there is or has been anyone in my life for any period of time that made my life hell...maybe a specific ex boyfriend, but I am trying to forgive him...haha. Maybe if I write a little about the relationship, it will help me forgive.<br /><br />This specific boyfriend was such a charmer. Lots of other girls liked him and I know plenty of girls that also dated him or "hooked up" with him. We dated for probably 8 months and I only remember 1 nice thing he did for me. He made dinner reservations at a fairly nice restaurant and paid for the meal. I remember MANY other times that involved us going out and him "forgetting his wallet" or trying to pay with a personal check. I also remember getting asked for gas money on a regular basis. Of course I don't mind paying sometimes or splitting the check on a regular basis, but I don't like when it is always on one person and I remember I was always the one to pay.<br />There was also constant pressure to have sex. Somehow I was strong enough to never give in, but it was a miserable experience. I was made to feel bad about myself and my choices in regards to sex. It was some sort of pressure almost every time we were alone. Maybe I am exaggerating in my head and it wasn't as often as I remember, but I trained myself to cry on command whenever the pressure got to be too much and then he would lay off.<br />I have NO idea why we dated for so long, but it was not a good thing. I hold such a grudge because it was suck a miserable experience. Honestly I was burned for a while...it followed me through the next guy I dated and stuck around in the following relationship for a little while.<br /><br />I am focusing on letting go of that experience and forgiving. He was young and silly and it was a long time ago. He could be a different person now. It's a process. It's a hard process.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-20361425475184634052010-07-13T07:52:00.000-07:002010-07-13T08:01:48.754-07:00Day 7"Someone who has made your life worth living for"<br /><br />Do animals count? haha, but I'm mostly serious...<br /><br />This one is hard for me for a few reasons...<br />1) I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings by not mentioning them<br />2) Life is worth living on its own...because it can be spectacular<br />3) I make my life worth living for. I know that I have in the past relied on someone else to give me happiness and confidence and a sense of self, but I see now that maybe that's not the best way. There are people in my life who make my life better. I am so blessed to have beautiful friends and family who I adore each and every day. I love the time we spend together and even if we are far apart (some of my best friends are far away) I can feel their love constantly.<br /><br />I make my life worth living. I don't know if that sounds selfish or conceded or maybe it's because I don't have a husband and children. I think that having someone else make your life worth living is walking in dangerous territory. What happens if they leave and your life's worth was wrapped up in them? Maybe it's because my dad died when I was young or maybe I have walls up. Regardless, right now my answer to this question is me. I make my life worth living and everyone else that becomes involved are wonderful perks to being alive.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-21946185871113599532010-07-12T09:59:00.000-07:002010-07-12T10:05:19.056-07:00Day 6"Something you hope you never have to do"<br /><br />I really hope I never have to make the decision to take someone off of life support again. We did this with my dad and it was the worst decision to have to make. Completely and utterly horrible. I would never wish it on anyone and I NEVER want to have to do it again.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-54112097658976315202010-07-11T09:22:00.000-07:002010-07-12T14:16:12.583-07:00Day 5"Something you hope to do in your life"<br /><br />This is hard for me because there are SO many things I want to do in my life. I will make a list (because I love lists) of things I want to do...<br /><br />1) Travel to India to study Yoga<br />2) Live in the Bay Area again<br />3) See Machu Pichu<br />4) Try Veganism<br />5) Do a headstand without a wall<br />6) Swim with a dolphin/beluga whale<br />7) Work with animals<br />8) Choreograph a evening length piece<br />9) Go on another cruise<br />10) Do a half marathon or a small triathlon<br />11) Go to a fancy ball<br />12) Open an animal sanctuary with my sister in Orange County<br />13) Get married<br />14) Have babies<br />15) Get a PhD in Dance<br /><br />So these are just the first 15. I have so many things I would like to do or try and even if I don't get to all of these things, it's ok. I feel like its better to have lots of dreams and hopes and wishes and not accomplish every one than to have none at all for fear of failure.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-33832019084968553362010-07-10T09:45:00.000-07:002010-07-10T09:53:05.589-07:00Day 4"Something you have to forgive someone for"<br /><br />Let's be honest...I can hold a grudge if I want to. I don't know why I can hold a grudge so well, but I can and I do.<br /><br />It may sound silly but I want to forgive all of my ex boyfriends/ ex dates for any wrong that they did towards me. I was broken up with in a lot of weird and hurtful ways. If I think about them now, some of them still sting a bit. Letting them go is what I want to do, but it is a process. It all happened so long ago and it really doesn't matter anymore. I don't need to be best friends with any of these ex's, but not focusing on what has happened in the past will make hearing about them much more tolerable.<br /><br />Holding on to all of that anger does not serve me. Grudges are pointless and take up extra space inside that I could be using for something else. It's really funny to me that I decided to do this blog exercise because a LOT of these answers are things I am currently working on and changing because of my deepening yoga practice. Yoga is really about self reflection and self improvement and because I am so immersed in it right now, all of these things are on the forefront of my mind.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-52426268542557544772010-07-09T07:52:00.000-07:002010-07-09T07:52:27.744-07:00Day 3"Something you need to forgive yourself for"<br /><br />For some reason I have a lot of guilt about things I shouldn't. I have been working on this a lot lately and it is getting better...but I am not perfect and I realize that change takes time. Not all the things I need to forgive myself for are things I want to write on a public blog...ha!<br /><br />Logically it doesn't make much sense, but I still feel bits of guilt about it here and there. I need to forgive myself for going away to school and leaving my mom and sister. They made it without me and did brilliantly, but sometimes I feel badly that I wasn't there for them. Going to Oakland was one of the best decisions I have made. It was a wonderful time in my life and I do think about moving back there. I really need to forgive myself for this and get rid of the guilt because I know it doesn't make sense! Guilt can be such a useless emotion.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-2406303992422303572010-07-08T12:03:00.000-07:002010-07-09T07:51:53.624-07:00Day 2"Something You Love About Yourself"<br /><br />I love my ability to be caring and comforting towards others. I can make people feel safe and comfortable and un-judged. I love the fact that people feel like they can talk to me even though I sometimes get dumped on.<br /><br />I care about people's feelings and I want everyone to know that they matter and are cared about. I think I am capable of doing this so well, because I take care of myself and learn about my feelings first. I am not perfect at that, but I try really hard to listen to what I need. I think that if you don't take care of yourself first, you can't actively help others.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-42670997303865491952010-07-07T09:46:00.000-07:002010-07-09T07:51:17.595-07:00Day 1"something you hate about yourself"<br /><br />First of all, I dont "hate" anything about myself. Hate is too strong of a word to use against myself. There are things I don't like, but I won't say I HATE anything.<br /><br />Something I dislike about myself is my lack of motivation that sometimes overtakes may desire to do things. I want to do all sorts of things...go hiking more often, go swimming, take more dance classes, do laundry, cook more, try being vegan, volunteer more often, ride my bike etc. I just let my laziness get in the way of all of that. I get stuck in my routine of doing what I need to do and then making excuses as to why I am not going the extra mile or put it off until tomorrow.<br /><br />Don't get me wrong, I do what is expected of my in regards to work and the like. All of my jobs get 100% and I don't put anything off until the next day. Like I said, I do what I need to do.<br /><br />I think procrastination falls under this dislike as well. I totally put things off all the time. Even really dumb things like laundry or grocery shopping. I don't know where it comes from and I have been making extra effort recently to change this. My yoga practice has really helped me and I should probably tap into this more often to do what I want to do.Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-64429764615446690092010-07-06T08:19:00.000-07:002010-07-06T08:25:01.463-07:0030 Days of Truths<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgo_Edi38zAiKeacth8iJt2TT1_Dfjxgw8PFaHddsUHPAnSAp7hplejCv0ThHIvBGaYdFcc2rffJL63LEW7gdLUqwmBmDQDnmx9yqllbLDWReJmCa3GPnJGhPH1KUYWt_IDBH-YrW8_mZzb/s1600/30days.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 292px; height: 236px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgo_Edi38zAiKeacth8iJt2TT1_Dfjxgw8PFaHddsUHPAnSAp7hplejCv0ThHIvBGaYdFcc2rffJL63LEW7gdLUqwmBmDQDnmx9yqllbLDWReJmCa3GPnJGhPH1KUYWt_IDBH-YrW8_mZzb/s320/30days.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5490814412282790754" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://curiouspug.blogspot.com/">The Curious Pug</a> is participating in this interesting challenge and I thought it would be fun and a good way to get in the habit of writing more often!! Tomorrow will be day #1!!!<br /><br />Each day I will write on these topics...<br /><br /><br />Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.<br />Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.<br />Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.<br />Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.<br />Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.<br />Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.<br />Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.<br />Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.<br />Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.<br />Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.<br />Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.<br />Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.<br />Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)<br />Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)<br />Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.<br />Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.<br />Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.<br />Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.<br />Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?<br />Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.<br />Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?<br />Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.<br />Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.<br />Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)<br />Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.<br />Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?<br />Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?<br />Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?<br />Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.<br />Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.<br /><br />Let me know if you are going to participate as well!!Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-63349078911405640032010-06-23T14:45:00.000-07:002010-06-23T14:48:08.716-07:00Sneak PreviewHere is what I have been working on today! Not quite sure if it is done yet...<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEJeo-1Iz0Sylf9a1PPKNdg9ZVs-KruPSFJOrk3f4pzv-2fUGPL9lN74MnaVWKUu03h82x3pjb1yvBVVyPC_HX05eAf6SRLgAWeSJnl3zjKqAMQ1LCVgFX_IjzLuP267AHAsp3xzKmN5oA/s1600/Photo+on+2010-06-23+at+14.45.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEJeo-1Iz0Sylf9a1PPKNdg9ZVs-KruPSFJOrk3f4pzv-2fUGPL9lN74MnaVWKUu03h82x3pjb1yvBVVyPC_HX05eAf6SRLgAWeSJnl3zjKqAMQ1LCVgFX_IjzLuP267AHAsp3xzKmN5oA/s320/Photo+on+2010-06-23+at+14.45.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5486089035143447922" border="0" /></a>Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-47190146159577663742010-05-29T11:19:00.000-07:002010-06-07T07:54:50.548-07:00Daily AffirmationSince beginning my yoga journey, I have started to compile a list of quotes and affirmations that I can tell myself or tell others in class when I start teaching. These affirmations are all about loving yourself and taking care of yourself. People treat themselves horribly most of the time...internally and externally. We say things to ourselves that we would NEVER say to anyone else. Why is it supposedly not ok to be nice yourself and show yourself some compassion?<br /><br />Today I told myself "The greatest gift you will ever receive is the gift of loving and believing in yourself. Guard this gift with your life. It is the only thing that will ever be truly yours." --Tiffany Loren RoweCarly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1106179746342886645.post-48996141926686301332010-05-05T08:56:00.000-07:002010-05-05T14:47:34.476-07:00i have not written in a while...Update:<br /><br />I started my Yoga certification training program. It is through <a href="http://www.cloudnineyoga.com/">Cloud 9 Yoga</a> in Huntington Beach but it is being housed at <a href="http://www.soulathome.com/">Soul at Home</a> in Tustin, CA.<br /><br />After the first meeting I felt completely confident that I was making the right choice in so many ways. This program was the right choice. The timing is right. The location is perfect. I am learning so much about Yoga and about myself. I am feeling less judgmental towards myself and others. I am feeling more connected to my body and to the world around me. It has only been a week and I feel changed. I know by the end of this lovely program, I will be changed in more ways that I can count and I will be myself , but enhanced.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgX8h06xkhKTxgI2-mdJS8im2m4I3I5SMVXQEtl4ETjCAO22qDerYCxCzqnEMlWU_AF-Z17xmJ63xa9Tp4CwPhwLJVtQj51N50jC-k734deUSjcHpfRre4xdEggZUeG7G-FvGSfEbgHE-Tu/s1600/yoga.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgX8h06xkhKTxgI2-mdJS8im2m4I3I5SMVXQEtl4ETjCAO22qDerYCxCzqnEMlWU_AF-Z17xmJ63xa9Tp4CwPhwLJVtQj51N50jC-k734deUSjcHpfRre4xdEggZUeG7G-FvGSfEbgHE-Tu/s320/yoga.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5467905187652452130" border="0" /></a>Carly Suzannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15989345968399200548noreply@blogger.com3